A Change of Plans

‘A Change of Plans’

Theres a storm that rages in my mind
A wind thats whirling all the time
It shakes the shutters with my stutters,
Yet dormant, resides behind
The lies I paint my face to find
A peace, a place to buy some time
To calm the writhing tides insie
That erode the stairs as I try to climb.

But each step I take does nothing,
But exacerbate the suffering in which I swim,
The constant tug of war within – that crashes down
Like waves on a white flag bearing beach –
So I tread the water, but I fear I may sink,
Because every time I stop to think, to catch my
Breath, to simply blink the blank stare of defeat
Away,to try to find the strength to stay, my head
Sinks down below the crest, the water trickles down
Inside my chest, filling the emptiness inside with
A Sinister, sweet defeat.
A Fate I never thought I’d meet –
Let alone, with open arms, greet.

 

4.9.16

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I wrote this back in 2007, and really just think its fitting to post this one first.  Wow is this old.  Here is the link to the original place I published it:

http://voices.yahoo.com/love-memories-8314861.html?cat=42

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As I stagger to my feet,
I see the shadows on the floor.
Suddenly I feel so incomplete,
As I feel the breeze of the open door.

I look around, You’re not here.
I try to let go, I shed a tear
I never thought I’d see the day,
When You got up, and walked away.

As I sit here, all I see,
Ghosts of Us floating by.
All of the memories, too hard to watch.
Yet one of which caught my eye.

It was Us…
It was Love I know.
We shared a kiss,
I watched it grow.

But none of this seems real,
All of these memories,
This whole ordeal.

I feel the rain pouring down,
But I look to the sky,
I see not a cloud.

But I can’t stay here,
Now I know I must go,
But deep down in my heart,
I want You to follow…

But Love is a two-player game,
And if You give up,
It’s just not the same.

I hope You know
Exactly what You threw away,
It was something Real,
Nothing You see everyday.

But there is nothing I can do,
I have to let You see,
The one You are meant to be with,
Is Me.

Today

I am officially beginning the upload of some of my original poems.  I was going to keep them all together, and make a book, but I would rather put them out there for people to see!